Sorry i rant

I was not planning to talk about this thing until I read Saab's post regarding her own fight with those anonymous people calling her FAT. I am on the other hand experienced the same predicament. I personally think that comments shot through jokes are always (mostly) what others want to tell you but doesn't want to implicate pain in obvious way. I was not keen to entertaining nasty comments from others so i didn't bother minding them.

But here's my cut, back in my younger years I was the toothpick girl in a group of friends, too thin, always sick and never had the chance to wear clothes that looks good on me. Took me years to start eating good because my stomach and my appetite never permits me to enjoy foods. 

I personally think that fatness is not a disease, it is somehow a wrong way of consuming foods and eventually a result of nonfunctional/ or delayed digestive that makes your body react to it. It starts to make you fuller, rounder, whatever.

Some of my co-workers are simply teasing me..I believe they are. They are calling me FAT, asking where my neck has gone and even sometimes when I'm wearing sleeveless poking me about a boxing fight.

I am not fat, maybe not skinny but not fat. I may not have the model type body but I definitely don't have the body of a sumo wrestler, Yes they are fat because they intend to do that for a profession purposes. I have the normal size for my body and height.So that means I AM NOT FAT.

I've said that giving them my attention is not my cup of tea, But when everyone starts calling you FAT  everyday is something that I need to check on, but what happened is I start depriving myself meals because I was scared that I may have gain weight that I am not aware of.

I don't think I have a mental problem or a disorder about what body types should I be, I love to eat but it doesn't mean I am not guarding myself, But if I am fat then what can I do but begin to do something to not let it happen because of my heart problem. My body is not allowed to gain weight beyond my limit because my back bones and hip bones are a bit weak for a fuller body.

My heart is the first to react whenever I am gaining weight too much for my need..SO basically I am not FAT, due that I am still in fine condition.

But here's my photo.I know I didn't make sense. but I i had written this a couple of week ago, you'd feel my rage. I was mad, i got mad. No one has the right to make me feel shit just because they want to have fun.
No one should call you something you're not. A plain joke may ignite and turn into fire that will hurt someday hurt someone.