feather illustration

I really like feathers in different colors, I like them in dream catcher, bags, shirts and any other things. But I dont collect any of it, I dont think I would ever be plucking one from birds or chicken. When I was young my Uncles would slaughter chickens in front of me, not that they intent to but my place does not allow me to hide from it. I live in suburban, my family does not own a fridge, so chicken was the only meat available 24/7. My father used to grow them in numbers and slaughter one chicken per week only to be served at the table full of children, I grew up living with my mothers family, my granny, uncles, aunts and cousins, imagine cooking a whole chicken for the hungry adults and kids, my granny would then make sure that the chicken is chopped accordingly, by numbers. She would make sure to cut it and count every bit of the chicken so all would be fairly given. So WHAT IM TRYING TO SAY IS IM NOT WEIRD HUMAN BEING THAT COLLECTS FEATHER FROM ANIMAL. its just that feathers are normally on the ground so we just as young kids pick them and play with it. But I know that Im weird different areas so its okay to judge me.

Actually I dont find this post relevant to my drawing, because the feather I drew does not really define it. It could be a feather of an angel, or a geese, safely say, it could be from my imaginary animal.

My depression is seriously showing with whatever Im writing here.